When Selena Gomez released  last year – an ode to the time spent with Justin Bieber – the music video was easily the most watchable thing since… well, since a very long time. Speaking to Amy Schumer for  magazine, Gomez told the comedian about the moment she felt like she was becoming herself again after her breakup from her long-time boyfriend.

“I wrote [the song] at the beginning of last year, and had just gotten out of treatment,” Gomez recalled. “It was a moment when I came back and I was like, ‘I’m ready to go into the studio with people I trust and start working on songs.’ There was an air around it where people were very happy, because it was like I was going to finally be me. But I didn’t necessarily see it that way at the time. When I wrote the song, I was basically saying that I needed to hit rock-bottom to understand that there was this huge veil over my face.”

Of deleting her Instagram and then doing a 180 by reactivating it to share her personal life, Gomez said it was a way to control the narrative in the paper. She said it was never her intention to become a tabloid. “So when things kind of happened that way, it got out of control,” she said. “And then I was like, ‘Wait, none of this is true.’ The way the media has sometimes tried to explain things has made it sound really bad, when in reality there’s nothing wrong with the fact that I needed to go away or that I fell in love. I had to start opening up because people were taking away my narrative and it was killing me. I’m so young and I’m going to keep changing, and no one has the right to tell me how my life’s going.”

Schumer asked whether people should be worried about Gomez, given all she’s gone through. “Millions of people have so much love for you, and when someone meets you, they can see your kindness and your intelligence and your vulnerability,” Schumer said. “I think people worry about you. I’ve worried about you. Should we be worried about you?”

“No,” Gomez replied. “I’ve gone through some really difficult stuff, and because of those moments, whether I liked it or not, a picture was painted of my life. That was scary because I didn’t want it to affect my career.”

“You didn’t want what to affect your career? Your personal life?” Schumer asked.

“Yeah,” Gomez said. “It got out of control when I was super young. I think it showed people that I was weak in certain moments, and that I had troubles. Some people just get off on building people up and then trying to bring them down… People worry about me because I’ve had some trouble in the past. And it’s kind, it is. But I’m okay. I deal with what I deal with, and if I feel like I’m having a rough week or I’m not up to doing something, I don’t do it.”

Source: graziamagazine.com